Friday, August 28, 2009

an unfamiliar fear

i decided long ago to stay away from any sort of dating senior year.
but things never go as planned. not in my life, anyway XD
a close friendship formed in japan has developed into something more.
how much more? i'm not sure.

i never imagined such great platonic chemistry could exist between us.
but whether that would translate into something else is anyone's guess.
we've established that mutual attraction is definitely there.
the problem? middlebury / weslayan = distance.

will i keep letting distance be the authority on my romantic life?
i don't know. frankly, i'm getting really tired of it.
i still feel as if my relationship with jbb came to an untimely end.
and that's another bad reason to start dating yet again.

or maybe that's just a lame excuse.
because the truth is, i'm terrified of getting hurt this time.
i've always bounced back in the past,
never yielding to the uncertainty of heartbreak....

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