voiceless

tomorrow marks the second week, third day of classes, and already i feel as if i'm a robotic machine just going through the motions. ever since i've arrived on campus, i've been moving/doing/working nonstop. two weekends have come and gone, and yet i haven't had a day to myself to unwind and relax.

day one: after a sleepless night of packing, i take alice in my car && my family heads out to middlebury at 7am. arrive on campus 2.5 hours later. unload alice's things on the lawn outside her dorm. start shift at the college bookstore. unload my things from the car at the end of work. move things into my suite. drive suitemate to her shared storage unit. sleep on our living room couch as i had not yet been approved access to my room.

day two: shift at the bookstore. several phone calls are made to try to get me into my single. get locked out of my suite. fall asleep in a hall lounge waiting for suitemate's phone call. finally get approval to move in. go down to public safety to get room key. make bed and sleep without moving anything else in.

day three-six: shift at the bookstore. gradually move into my room from the suite's common space. meetings. more meetings. planning and organizing. more planning and organizing.

first week of classes: slow on the academic side. meetings upon meetings for middcheer and moqa. total of over twenty hours spent on just work for my team and organization.

first weekend: friend from wesleyan visits. fun time, but spend the whole weekend hosting. full day in burlington on saturday. more meetings and training on sunday.

second week, day one: class. coffee break. class. middcheer-related errands. physics lab. parents come to visit and drop a few things off. more middcheer-related planning. quick dinner. hold middcheer information meeting on my own because my coach had a minor emergency and couldn't make it to campus. de-stress with some tea in mia's suite upstairs.

today: wake up @ 5am. force self back to sleep for 30 more minutes. do laundry. quick breakfast. two-hour shift in the admissions office. meeting with my coach directly after. run several minutes late to a follow-up appointment in health center. finish some reading in alice's room before running off to meet emma for lunch. reschedule middcheer-related meeting for thursday so i could have a 40-minute nap before 3pm class.

.....got out of class. a friend's remark rubbed me the wrong way && i just had to get away from everyone. so here i am in my room finally attempting to put some thoughts into writing from the last several weeks of intensity. still not there yet.